But I’ve struggled with it ever since I got out of the hospital September 2024.
Tomorrow is a new day and I hope I can be less scared.
I don’t know if PTSD is what I have I’m still working with my therapist but it feels like it I get jumpy with knocking, and being surrounded with people.
Knocking on the door or people knocking on the door is very traumatic.
Police would knock on my door when I was in psychosis before I found out I had schizophrenia and broke in my apartment through the window the second time around.
I am sensitive to some noises and flashing lights from the police cars are a trigger.
How I cope is therapy and writing and reading.
Otherwise, Im in a birdcage mentally. Trapped.
I don’t know when I’ll break free.
Don’t know when I’ll have my own freedom but schizophrenia doesn’t define me.
I am me.
