Journal entry February 25th, 2019 – As you reach a turning point in your life you start to reflect back on everything that you have already accomplished. ‘Is it enough’ you start to ask yourself and the question lingers on inside your head for what seems like an eternity. You focus solely on the epicenter of your own universe and tune out the reality that is outside and all around you.
Finding A Way Through
I built my kingdom inside of my own head and I can teach you how to do it also, if you just pay attention to what you read and do not be deceived by my words or mistake them for something else. This is my own perspective and nothing meant to be personal. We are me and me are all of we so we refer to each and every one another in this way. The same each way that we see each other.
Controlling Your Memory
I imagine a beach front, the waves are rocky like a storm is rolling in. Which it is from behind, so it is pulling the current towards you. The waves crashing up to your feet as you look in the distant horizon, at the sunset which is golden yellow. The Storm is behind you, as you turn around to look back at the palace that you have created on your beach front.
There is the storm. Lightening and thunder raging, rain pouring down and always moving towards you but never actually reaching you. The palace that stands before you is an old style victorian house something from the 1800’s but big enough to fit a hundred guests. Have parties with thousands invited and still have space to move freely among. Inside is just a space, you can move from space to space inside the palace. They are memories of past events, you can remember as much as you want and try to feel what you felt back then.
The Controllable World
What if the human focus has to be on the light for everyone to connect on the same page? They knew we had to be connected so the power of the internet was given to the people. They used it to pollute their minds even more, filling it with nonsense and things that don’t matter. We waste all of our time focusing on things that are completely out of our control and the point is to focus on the things that we can control within ourselves.
We have to be the light that we want to see with in the world, we have to be able to push ourselves past the point of everlasting darkness. The ultimate suffering is an internal darkness that clouds your inner judgements. The point of the fact is that you have to be willing to do the things required everyday to get you to the next one. Whatever that is you have to do the best to get it done.